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triarrowupstart
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You alone must stand your ground
You take a life worth nothing and turn it around
You stand alone, yeah that's the deal
You have yourself to count on cause no one really cares
Another rainy New England night
At your wit's end with no hope in sight
You turn on Costello it's welcome to the working week
You're broke and cornered no one to call
On your shoulders the hardship falls
Yet something inside you stirs and you begin to smile
Faced with few options you look to yourself
And begin to decide that
You alone must stand your ground
You take a life worth nothing and turn it around
You stand alone, yeah that's the deal
You have yourself to count on cause no one really cares
Now the other side of the coin now hits
Optimism runs partner with it
The pendulum swings into your favor now
Cash in pocket you earn your keep
With security you will sleep
Your mandate never quit sustaining you
Got more options hit your stride and continue the fight
You alone must stand your ground
You take a life worth nothing and turn it around
You stand alone, yeah that's the deal
You have yourself to count on cause no one really cares
I've seen many people get lost in the fight
Seen any others just get pushed right out of sight
You alone must stand your ground
You take a life worth nothing and turn it around
You stand alone, yeah that's the deal
You have yourself to count on cause no one really cares
There were others who were not as fortunate as us
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well i felt so bad when i heard that song,
ya know it's been such a long long time,
it's a little offbeat and it ain't in tune ya know it's just like this heart of mine
and it hurt
when you went away
and all i wanted you to do was stay
going steady ya we had big plans,
but your friends said it wouldn't last,
it was up to you to prove them wrong,
but you couldn't even do that
and if it hurt, when you left,
ya know you're only hurtin' yourself
ya know the first night you left me babe, it was so hard,
and it didn't hurt you told all my friends i'm a retard
and ya say you know what's best for me,
well if you got your way, i'd have a lobotomy
i got new girls and i'm runnin' around,
the house doesn't look the same,
i hung new posters on my wall and the dog don't remember your name
and if it hurt, when you left,
ya know you're hurtin' yourself
you can try to change your heart, that's true,
but ya never ever ever do
ohhhh baby you never ever do
i'll tell you something, you never ever do
sleeding aides
and razorblades,
tear stained pictures of younger days,
broken mirrors and a bloody nose,
late night tv rerun episodes
... the good bands always fucking die. |
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change is good.
i thrive on change.
i'm afraid to be happy with what i have, in all aspects of my life, and i need to stop and be happy with what's here now, not what isn't. |
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Oct. 20th, 2006 @ 02:20 am
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![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) oipunk4588's Halloween party:
32plusflavors dressed as Dan Rather.
6kindsofwensday dressed as a lampshade.
__killyou dressed as a ghost.
_phenobarbidoll dressed as a new member of the Wu-Tang Clan, Intellectual Dominator.
allyoullbe dressed as James Madison.
bondagesheep dressed as Ronald Reagan.
britt_da_brat06 dressed as Captain Kirk from "Star Trek".
brittjaunt dressed as a disturbing self-made character called "Buttercup Monkeybrain".
cestlavie_x forgot to put on clothes!
christemo dressed as Jay Leno's grandmother, though it looked more like Thandie Newton riding a giraffe.
commiepunk77 dressed as Julia Stiles.
everybodypeefs dressed as Michael Jackson.
fracturedrefuge dressed as Tiffani-Amber Thiessen.
ftcpunx dressed as Tom Cruise.
g0h4n dressed as a new superhero: Element Cyborg, and it suited them disturbingly well.
gl0om_c0okie dressed as a ankle.
hellolosers gets drunk, strips naked, and somehow emerges dressed as the Duke of Kalata.
horger dressed as a fork.
iwanturundies9 dressed as a 1990's grunge child.
junkscripted didn't even show up and doesn't get any candy.
kkwillbeatyaazz dressed as a rust goblin.
koolkidkam dressed as a linebacker for the Giants.
lamarxvannoy dressed as a rabbit.
lenore_smiles69 dressed as the Governor of Missouri.
lordebon dressed as the Archbishop of Mead.
meelian dressed as Optimus Prime.
momoz918 dressed as a stiff flood.
northcat dressed as your grandfather.
obsolescently dressed as Daria, and it suited them disturbingly well.
oipunk4588 forgot to put on clothes!
on___the_might dressed as a EastLtd. employee.
p0ke_me dressed as a help desk department chairman.
phillyupstart dressed as the love child of Harrison Ford and Anna Nicole Smith.
porcelainaffair dressed as a rabbit, though it looked more like a scaly witch.
pxrxdxcxt didn't dress up, spoilsport.
radio_evie dressed as the President of Mauritius.
richardrahl dressed as Mary-Kate Olsen with her very own conjoined Ashley.
ridedalightning dressed as a bottle of Roxvance.
rok_kandie dressed as Squidward.
sarcasticcookie gets drunk, strips naked, and somehow emerges dressed as the main character of "Back to the Future".
skyofstluke dressed as a witch.
stratusfactionx dressed as Gwyneth Paltrow riding a rabbit.
takemewthy0u dressed as a character from Harry Potter and the Conjurer of Hammond.
untitled013 dressed as a Level 14 ranger.
want_a_sooooda dressed as something lime, but what, specifically, you can't tell.
zbouncingsoulz dressed as the Submerged Power Ranger.
Throw your own party at the Hallomeme!
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yuengling and PBR make zach have good nights.
especially with good company.
pictures to follow, sometime?
in the mean time, it just makes me do this:
Oct. 2nd, 2006 @ 11:22 pm
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i really don't see the point
in telling lies
in telling fairy tales
we're all gonna die our deaths tonight
Aug. 6th, 2006 @ 12:22 am
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I love Kara
(says kara! -zach)
Jul. 24th, 2006 @ 12:47 am
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taco and poker night.
it's a success so far.
(phase one; tacos! mmmmmm.)
Jul. 22nd, 2006 @ 08:25 pm
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In Memory Of Dan Shersty & Lin "Spit" Newborn
8 Years ago on this day, a horrible crime was commited. A crime that rocked Las Vegas and dare we say the country. 2 bodies were found in the outskirts of Las Vegas NV. Killed execution style.
Word soon spread of the tragedy. Soon it got out these victims were skinheads. Not the run-of-the-mill skinheads you'd so often expect, these were anti racist skinheads. One White one Black, both members of the Las Vegas ARA (Anti Racist Action) and founders of the Las Vegas Unity Skins. The Victims Dan Shersty and Lin "Spit" Newborn, both commited fighters of racism in the skinhead scene. Both killed for what they believed in. As word spread of the horror, anti-racists around the world were forced to face facts, we cannot stand-by while our brothers and sisters get knocked down by fascist scum.
Today is a day of reflection. We remember all who have fought, who are fighting and will fight against racism, extremism and hatred that thanks to the sacrifices of Lin and Dan, we thankfully see little of in our scene. And when we do, we remember Lin and Dan's fight, and muster-up the courage to stand up and speak out.
Today we also celebrate ALL the lives given for anti racism and the fight to make the world a better place for all.
Lin and Dan taught us to never give up, stand tall and always
speak our mind. Despite what "trads" go on about, these are
the real traits of a real skinhead. Not apathy or racism.
Today isn't only about us. 2 families lost a piece that can never be
replaced. Their sons, nephews, grandsons and yes ,sadly, even a father. We send our deepest wishes of solace and support to the Shersty and Newborn families on this day. Your pain is our pain.
WE WILL NEVER FORGET DAN SHERSTY AND LIN "SPIT" NEWBORN.
Past
Present
Future
Jul. 5th, 2006 @ 12:00 am
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wow.
i think that that might have been one of the most fun weeks of my life, as of yet.
(to be updated with pictures and such when people get them developed.)
pictures!
Jun. 25th, 2006 @ 04:26 pm
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i sincerely hope that this entry doesn't hurt any feelings, but it needs to be put out there.
so jim has a party. kara comes with me. so everybody's standing outside, i'm bullshitting with everyone, and meg drives up. no big deal to 99% of us, but her and warren get sensitive because kara's there. so meg leaves, and warren procedes to join in the conversation with davis, houck, the kevilles, and i, completely ignoring the fact that kara's standing right next to me. that's pretty gay. but that's not the main complaint of this entry, that's just a nice introduction to a whiny emo rant. so i'm sitting on the couch with kara, watching seannyb's band play. to be completely honest, the first song sucked hard, but after that, i started warming up to the music a little bit more. i turned around and saw liz, but didn't really think anything of it. kara pointed out that sam had just come in, so in typical zach manner, i just got quiet. big brother finishes up their set with about 54237342987 "one more times", but they did it well. so we start to set up our shit, which doesn't take too terribly long, then we start playing our set. we play through most of the set fine, except for skipping sealab... but throughout the entire set, i keep catching sam out of the corner of my eye and trying to look away.. i'm pretty sure i fucked up most of our songs, honestly, because my mind wasn't even there until the last song. we played l'eggo my ego last, and i kinda took every frustration i've ever had out on the mic... gang vocals are quite possibly the most therapeutic thing i've ever experienced, but the relief lasts all of about 3 seconds after the chords stop ringing. teh redundos played a pretty damned good set... i'm glad that they've come so far, if only for the sheer amount of effort they've put into it. they played HEG, as usual, and i made a pretty weak attempt to dance to it, but i can't ignore the song that much... so i stood there and sang along. they played social security near the end of the set, so i stole roger's mike and tore the fuck out of my vocal cords singing, but it was pretty fun. oh, i forgot to mention that after FTE's set, kara just left and went outside into her car. so sam tells me she's been drinking all day, and i tell her not to get herself killed driving, and then me, phil, and kara leave jim's house. kara drives phil home, and we stop at the gas station because her car's on E. that's always bad. so we drive around aimlessly for a while, talking about everything. kara tells me that i make her feel second best, and that she knows that if sam wanted to be with me, that i'd drop kara without a second thought. i kinda got quiet, because as much as i want to deny that, i can't. i can't lie to kara and tell her that it isn't true, so i just shut my mouth. we drove around for a bit more before stopping at her house, which i sat outside of in the car for 10 or 15 minutes, just thinking. we went over to the brookhaven wendys, and ended up meeting houck in the parking lot of the pep boys across the street. i fucking wish that i had an idea of what emotions are going through my head now, because it seems like there's a million of them. i told kara last night that when sam and i broke up, i jumped into life. i just started living, doing everything i could just so i wouldn't have to think about her. maybe i've been avoiding dealing with it for the past year, or maybe the year just hasn't done shit to help me get over it. i've got a million people telling me to just "get over it", but nobody seems to have any fucking advice on how to do that. maybe it's just that i do love her, and i'm too fucking stupid or stubborn to give up on that. i grew up being taught that you were never afraid to show someone how you felt about them, but it seems like i've been purposely ignoring her existence for the past year just so i didn't have to do that. this might be the most one-sided moment in my life as of yet. i feel like i've still got all these feelings floating around, and sometimes, i think you do too. like when you showed up to superfresh and told me that you missed me. but then, there are times like today, when i call to talk and get a measured amount of completely sanitized time where i try to talk but the words just stop at my mouth. i wish i knew why you still make me feel like a 13 year old, because when i try to talk to you, i go fucking speechless. i know that i'm hurting kara by being like this, but i don't know any other way to be. she says that i make her feel second best, but how do i make her feel like she's first? even if i could, would that be honest? would it be fair of me to convince her that she's the one if even i'm not sure if she really is? i love hte fucking girl, but i can't find words to explain the differences between them.
this is terribly incomplete, but it's a bit of the maelstrom of emotion going through my head and heart at the moment. feel free to tell me how much of a dumbfuck i am, but try to be constructive, for christ's sake.
for once, i can't even find a bouncing souls song to explain how i feel.
argyle would work, but it's still falling short of the exact feeling i can't explain anyway
Jun. 16th, 2006 @ 02:57 pm
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...that make me really happy.
Jun. 5th, 2006 @ 11:30 pm
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"I will not play tug o' war. I'd rather play hug o' war. Where everyone hugs instead of tugs, Where everyone giggles and rolls on the rug, Where everyone kisses, and everyone grins, and everyone cuddles, and everyone wins."
-Shel Silverstein
"I do not consider it an insult, but rather a compliment to be called an agnostic. I do not pretend to know where many ignorant men are sure -- that is all that agnosticism means."
-Clarence Darrow
Apr. 9th, 2006 @ 05:47 pm
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ok, the object of this little game is to say 10 things about your friends or family, that you would never say to their face for whatever reason. disable comments. do not reveal identities. and never discuss it again. here we go...
1. you're my best friend. i'm still amazed at the fact that after all the shit i've put you through, you're still my friend. i'm here for you, even when shit gets ugly.
2. i love that no matter how much of a dick i am to you, inadvertantly and unintentionally, you don't let it bother you because you know that's just how i am.
3. i miss you. a lot. and i wish that things were different and i still saw you all the time. the beach made me happy.
4. i miss you more than anything. it still hurts to this day to hear about how happy you are with someone else, and i wish i could stop caring. i'm kinda hurt by the fact that you lied about wanting to be friends, too. i wish you'd stop using people and just be real again.
5. ps, number 4, i still love you, no matter how much that hurts.
6. i'm really disappointed that i never get to see you anymore, but i understand that you just had to get out of here. someday, i'll be up in philly with you kids, and i won't have to wonder when the next time i'll see or hear from you is.
7. you're the funniest drunk italian skinhead i know. thanks for everything.
8. you won't read this, and i don't care. thanks to you two for being the awesomest GV kids i know, even if one of you had a pretty bad impression of me to begin with. i'm glad that you could put that aside and get to know me.
9. i'm sorry that vicki fucked you over, and i wish i could do something to help. i'm sorry that i'm a dick to you sometimes. i love you, fucker.
10. i miss hanging out thinking that you two were the perfect couple, even if he was a dick to you sometimes. i miss believing that love worked out like that for people who deserved it. most of all, i miss seeing both of you happy. i hope you'll be happy again.
11. i really don't give two fucks about you. you're a fucking cunt, and i won't let you hurt him again. i'm not gonna sit by as my best friend gets mindfucked by a completely insane richkid like you. stop making idle myspace suicide threats and get the fuck over yourself.
12. i hate you, not for what you're doing now, but what you do to every girl you date. i don't like having to see friends get fucked when you tell them you love them, then break up with them, tell them you don't want a girlfriend, then get with someone else within a month. you're a fucking coward. and i'll be the first to admit that you kicked my ass, but it won't happen again.
Mar. 20th, 2006 @ 10:29 pm
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We are "cop rock" we are screech
We are z. cavaricci
We are laser removed
Tasmanian devil tattoos
We are third string we are puck
We are special people's club
We are the half shirts with
Irreverent spring break top ten lists
We are munsoned we are squat
We are flashing twelve o'clock
We are spread out butt cheeks
Pulled apart so just the air leaks
We are "ishtar" we are tab
We are no right turn on red
We are the moustaches
The beatles grew when they dropped acid
You are the heart dotting "i"
In the word "apologize"
Scribbled drunk on a postcard
Sent from somewhere volcanoes are
I am the heart with no name
Airbrushed on the license plate
Of a subaru that was
Registered in pennsylvania
We are zima we are barf
We are cinderblock yard art
We are baldwin brothers
Not the good one but the others
We are amway we are shemp
We are sir david of brent
We are the queef after
A porn star breaks the gang bang record
You are the heart dotting "i"
In the word "apologize"
Scribbled drunk on a postcard
Sent from somewhere volcanoes are
I am the heart with no name
Airbrushed on the license plate
Of a subaru that was
Registered in pennsylvania
Do you even know what a wawa is girl?
Do you even know what a wawa is?
Do you even know what a wawa is girl?
Do you even know what a wawa is?
I'm in a state of p fuckin' a
Feb. 26th, 2006 @ 09:43 pm
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post that all over the place, if you would, please.
-zach
Feb. 5th, 2006 @ 02:51 pm
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i'm glad that it's all resolved.
thanks.
Jan. 18th, 2006 @ 03:38 pm
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edit;
i should not be listening to straightedge hardcore.
Dec. 9th, 2005 @ 11:57 am
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... because i'm going sledding.
Dec. 9th, 2005 @ 11:56 am
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